"Who Let the Dogs Out"

I sounded soooo pathetic in my last post! I apologize for that! YUCK! I'm trying really hard not to be down on myself!!!

So we joined a gym...finally! I've been twice and I'm hoping it becomes an addiction! I'm trying to find a WW meeting I can attend regularly so I can start shedding some pounds!! I was doing so well before my surgery - 13 pounds in 5 weeks!! If I could lose about 30-35 more that would be great!

I've received some wonderful feeback regarding adoption agencies from families on the Adoption page via Facebook! I love this whole social networking thing!!! What did we do before all this nonsense?? LOL! Seriously though, I'm so grateful for everyone who has offered advice and given me references! I can't wait to start the process!!!

So let me tell you how much I LOVE living in Texas!!! We felt so alone in TN...it was so hard to make it to anything whether it be a birthday party or a wedding or just to visit. It's so nice to be able to leave and be wherever we need to be in about 2-3 hours! Not to mention, we actually know people in the area to hang out with. For example, Saturday I'm going to BMT for a Relay for Life meeting, Sunday I'm hanging out with some old A&M friends, Monday I'm having dinner with a HS friend and next weekend we are going to Austin for Stef's birthday! I love it! Sometime in the next few weeks, I'm trying to make it to Dallas to meet the A-team and see some peeps!!!

As for Chloe, she is growing so fast! Her legs are so long and she is still so cute! Once we get over this potty training thing, life will be grand! She sleeps through the night, though, which is one better than Preston when he was a pup! She gets to meet her extended family this weekend and I'm sure she is excited...you just can't tell! :)

Oh, here are some pics from our weekend with Zoren!!

Well, I need to go see what the pups have gotten into and start some dinner! Talk to you soon!

Chasing Pavements

I've been thinking about our future adoption process a lot lately. Ok...honestly, I've been worrying more than anything. I've always focused my attention on the cost and the wait...what about the initial acceptance??? Oh goodness...that stresses me out.

I know nobody said "life is fair", but I've found myself giving into the 'woe is me' attitude - if only for tonight. I just found out one more of my friends is pregnant, and although I'm very excited for them, I feel sorry for me. I know I'm not supposed to feel this way...or at least not out loud. But it's hard to stay happy about it all the time. I make jokes or I try to make it all sound ok when in reality, it's not. I see my scars every single day. I know I'm not the only one in the world going through this, but sometimes it feels like it. I want to take a pregnancy test. I want to wear maternity clothes. I want to know what my baby would look like. Life shouldn't revolve around our WANTS, and we should be thankful for what we have. I have a great husband and family and I now have my health! Lots of blessings. But I can't help but think how sad it would be for us to never have children of our own. I'm sure if you've read through my blog, you've probably heard me say that before.

So tomorrow I'm off work so I'm going to spend some time looking into some agencies in the area. I figure it won't hurt for us to meet with people and find out what we'll need to do eventually. My cousin called me the other night and we talked about foster to adopt. I never really had any feelings about this...I just assumed I'd do an infant adoption through an agency. I'm getting some info from her and we are more than willing to explore our options!

Speaking of adoptions...we adopted a new puppy. Her name is Chloe and we were TOLD that she was a lab mix but after a little research, we firmly believe she is a German Shepherd mix. She is so freakin' cute! I love having a puppy around and Preston is actually warming up to her a bit! We are guessing she is about 8 or 9 weeks old so we made her birthday December 8, 2009!

Chloe's first day home - LOVING the backyard!

Preston playing with his new baby sister!!!

Viva La Vida

It's February! Thank goodness! The past 2 months have been so...eventful? No...just too much! I'm officially starting my new year in February! I changed my backdrop and I'm going to start adding more pictures and make this a very uplifting blog! Afterall, all of the bad stuff is behind us and we have nothing but wonderful things in our future. We start planning for a baby in the next few months and I could not be more anxious. I think it's because so many of my friends are either pregnant or just had babies so I'm getting very antsy! I'm trying really hard to not get upset or to have a "poor me" attitude. My day will come!!!

My mother in law and my stepdaughter are both coming to stay with us this weekend! Chase and I both managed to get off so we won't have to plan our weekend around our work schedules! There are definite ups and downs to working in retail, and our lack of a weekend is definitely the biggest down! But we manage!!! I'm thinking Kemah could be fun...as long as the rain has stopped and it's not super cold! Otherwise we'll need to think of plan B!

Zoren in her new bedroom! She picked everything out herself! :)