Sometimes I forget that I have this fabulous outlet to think and type and get everything off my chest. Today has been a pretty good so far, afterall, it's Chase's 40th birthday. I love that man - just FYI! :)
The other thing on my mind today is the giant step we have decided to once again take. A couple of months ago we completed our foster care application with Covenant Kids. I filled it out without any intention of turning it in soon. I wanted to see how Chase felt and the kids - I already knew what I felt. I feel like this is my "thing". I feel like out of all of the gifts God gives us, I keep getting pulled in this direction. Maybe it's because I can't have children of my own. I don't question it, I just go with it. My biggest concern was Chase. This is not something that I can do on my own. He was quick to come on board (probably because he knew it was something important to me) and we both agreed that we would only be able to take one kiddo at a time this go round. A is excited and wants to be a big sister. I explained that a little kid may come live with us - it could be for a short time or a long time but they may go back to their mommy. Her response was simply "or they might live with us forever". Yes baby...they might. Z is almost 13, so I can only guess at her feelings on a little kid in the house LOL!!
Needless to say, I turned in our application. They have since received our Buckner information and in the process of reviewing that, we've completed all of our online training, updated all of our general paperwork and will attend an orientation this Friday. We are ready. I even bought a convertible crib. A wants to share a room with the "baby" so that works out great! Our goal is to be completed by the new year (depending on the availability of on site training classes).
I'm not as anxious as I have been the last couple of times we did this. I'm anxious to finish updating our license, but I'm not anxious about the placement. I know that God will take care of that. He will decide if we foster or adopt. He will decide when we get a placement. I have faith that this will all work out if it's meant to be.
Today I only ask for prayers for patience and guidance.
**I realized I never updated from my last post regarding A's sibling. She was adopted by paternal grandmother. We were very sad about this development, but pray that she will be cared for and loved in her new home.