Saturday, April 11, 2015

Missing you...

Since it's been so long since I've updated this thing, this blog will probably be a mash up of updates and my latest "poor me" thoughts!

First for updates!  The boys are doing great and enjoyed a fabulous Easter weekend getaway to the beach with my fabulous family!  We go to court April 30 where mom's attorney will file a motion to return.  This basically means that because she has worked her plan and done quite wonderfully, her attorney is asking for the boys to go home sooner than the 1 year expected date in August.  CPS has told us that they have no reason fight it because mom has done so well.  I only hope that when the boys go home, that she is ready!  They may make me crazy and look like a screaming lunatic (although Aubrey makes me do that too sometimes), but I will miss those babies so much.  We always knew that they would go home but you can never prepare a heart for it.  I pray the boys continue to grow and flourish like I've witnessed over the past 8 months and that this experience has forced there mom to realize how precious her babies are.  

So now the topic that prompted me to write today.  I miss my family.  I miss my mom and dad and living so close to them.  I'm sad that Aubrey is so far from her family and doesn't get to see her grandparents as often as she used to.  I didn't have a lot of friends in PN, but my entire family was there so we always had something to look forward to...even just a trip to Casa Ole.  I'm so lonely here. The kids and work keep me busy for the most part, but man oh man do I wish I had some family close.  I never regret anything because that only make people bitter and resentful.  I'm thankful that I have a wonderful husband and as a couple we decided on this move.  I love my house and my new neighborhood and my job.  I don't regret anything. I'm just sad.  I miss Aunt Eva or Zita calling to meet me at Rancho. I miss going to my mom's for dinner when Chase was out of town or worked late.  I know that I can't do anything about it at this point, but I just felt like I needed to let it out. I am hopeful, though, that we will make some good friends in our new town/neighborhood and the lost feeling I have will subside.  

And there you have it...poor little Lisa! :)  Happy Saturday everyone!

2 comments:

  1. Love your beautiful soul lisa, it hard being away from family, I have my beautiful girls and grand kids here. I also have a son in Cali and his cute family, they chose Mikayla to been born on my birthday, so special for me! I spent a month with them at the holidays. I will be moving back to the gold rush town I grew up in northern cali, an 1 1/2 hour from Lake tahoe, in june to be near them and be with my babies there, then I will miss the ones here. Thing is the visits will be great and fond memories. Proud of you and Chase he has always had a special place in my heart. Much live, cheri

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  2. Love your beautiful soul lisa, it hard being away from family, I have my beautiful girls and grand kids here. I also have a son in Cali and his cute family, they chose Mikayla to been born on my birthday, so special for me! I spent a month with them at the holidays. I will be moving back to the gold rush town I grew up in northern cali, an 1 1/2 hour from Lake tahoe, in june to be near them and be with my babies there, then I will miss the ones here. Thing is the visits will be great and fond memories. Proud of you and Chase he has always had a special place in my heart. Much live, cheri

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