I had a couple of messages asking about updates, so I'll jump right in. As you know, there have been no parent visits since April 19 and before that, only one visit the week after we got Baby Girl. This past Friday, Chase got a phone call at 12pm from our case worker. Mom called and cancelled the visit because she got a job and could not make it. She said that Monday or Tuesday would be better and our case worker told us she would set something up, even if she had to get Baby Girl from daycare. When Chase called to tell me the news, I was having lunch with a friend I hadn't seen in a while so Lori, I truly apologize for the sudden change in my demeanor! LOL!
Ok...here I go! First of all....2 hours before the visit??? Really???? And what about the previous 7 weeks, where were you then? Secondly, NO WAY anyone is bringing Baby Girl to a visit other than us! We would leave work in the middle of the day just to be sure we were with her! Lastly, I was really bummed to hear she had a job because I instantly began to think the worse (I asked for major forgiveness for celebrating failures and not rejoicing in her making her life better). She's obviously working part of her plan and it's only a matter of time until we lose Baby Girl!!! I continued to regress even further than that. Why can't I just have my own baby? Why does it feel like I'm never really going to be mother? This is so unfair!!! What kind of life lesson is He trying to teach me??? Why is everything so easy for some people and everything is so darn difficult for me???? Pathetic!! I've definitely calmed down since Friday although when I really start to talk about the "what ifs", I get teary.
Needless to say, today is Tuesday and we never got a phone call back from our caseworker to set up a visit! The week is young, though, so there is still a possibility of it happening!
I had begun to do so well at pushing all of those thoughts out of the way and focusing on the day to day. The devil places fear in our lives. He enjoys when we open ourselves up to vulnerability because that's when he will strike. I will not let him in. I will not let him ruin the wonderful time I have with Baby Girl. She is a beautiful, innocent, sweet baby and I will continue to love her and spoil her as much as I can!!! We never forget to say our prayers and ask God everyday to watch over our family and protect our hearts!
In other Baby Girl news, we started VEGGIES this week! YAY!! (I sooo wish I could post pictures) I wasn't sure if it was time, but she does great at eating her cereal with a spoon so we thought we would give it a try! We tried peas first and she made it through the first few bites before she realized that she did NOT like them so we gave up on them for now (we will re-visit later)! Tonight we tried sweet potatoes and she LOVED them! We will introduce fruits once we've mastered the veggies! My only problem is I have NO idea how often we feed her the baby food along with her formula and cereal! Any advice from mommies out there would be greatly appreciated!
I'll continue to update as we hear more about our visits! Please remember that she has a hearing set for July 31 so prayers for a fair judge are welcome. Our BIG court time isn't until November, but you never know what could happen between now and then!!!
I will continue to pray for your family and especially for Baby Girl! I'm so glad you are enjoying your time with her! As far as the baby food goes this is what I did with mine: We were told to start with the "orange" veggies first so we did the sweet potato/squash/carrots for a couple weeks then moved on to the "green" veggies. The orange ones are sweeter so they will want to eat them more, that's what we were told and seemed to work! I just fed the veggies at "normal" meal times for lunch and supper. And I nursed both of mine and supplemented with formula when needed but I would usually wake baby-nurse, give cereal; snack-some sort of gerber puffs stuff; lunch-veggies, more milk; snack again; supper-veggies and some snacky thing with it; then nursed/bottle before bed time. Hope this helps a little or a lot!
ReplyDeleteKeep your chin up and God will take care of the rest! Thanks for the update-Barbara